Afraid
Fear, hello old friend. You come in many forms. The rollercoaster of fear is real. The fear of putting yourself out there and looking ridiculous is too! Both are valid, both are ok. I have been afraid to do many things in my life, but I have learned more and more that the worst thing you can do is nothing and that Nothing is exactly what your fear feels best doing.
The drawings go in order, Days 1-5. Click on the first drawing and you can click through them all.
Day 1. When I’m afraid, I feel like there is a cloud in my way and I can’t see anything or get through it.
Day 2: After having a difficult conversation I realized that my defensiveness was because I was afraid. I tried to think of what I was afraid of happening. I am afraid of drowning, of being taken against my will. This drawing doesn’t capture it really.
Day 3: I am afraid of all the challenges that stand between me and what I want to do. This is the point where you make a decision whether to do the thing or not and I admit that I get stuck here most often and it sucks.
Day 4: I am afraid of not making it to the place I want to end up. This is the feeling sorry for myself part of being afraid that also sometimes tries to confuse me and I get stuck here too but less often as I recognize it.
Day 5: After being in the Afraid zone for 5 days I am done with it, in reality I have been working on this feeling for many years. For the first time in a long time I am ready to accept that I will always be afraid of something, but that I can let that something come along with me when I keep going.
This is the Draw Your Feelings Project.
Next Feeling: Excited
Will you join me? This is a year long project, dedicated to connecting to our feelings and ourselves through our art. Send me your drawings, I’d love to see them!